Daddy , i ♥ u . i swear .

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i celebrated mooncake festival with my family at my grandparent's house on 25th Sept 2010..


On that day , i felt that my daddy wasn't really love me .. he didn't care about me ..even i'm sick .. i hate this feeling .. SERIOUSLY .


it's not that he doesn't fulfill my need in my life , yes, he did gave me money, buy things that i need to use, let me eat things that are good and give a nice and comfortable place for me to live .. bt that's not the problem.. it's all about love and caring for me , as a father ...


i really can't feel any love from him , honestly .. all i need is a father's care, i really need it .... .... i took after my father .. i looked like him.. not just face, even my personalities .. ( many people agree with it =] )


But WHY ???? ....... why there's a BIG F*CKING WALL staying between us ?? .. it STOPPED me .. STOPPING me from HUGGING u , GIVING A WARM SMILE to u , and even TELL u that '' I LOVE YOU '' ... ...


and we doesn't have any thing to talked about when we're alone .. just me , and you . the feeling become weird when we face each other.. even we're out for meal ( alone ) .


Is this all because of u didn't see it by urself when i came to this world ??!!.. Gosh .. how can it be ?? .. how i wish time flows back .. .. u've watched two of my sister coming to this world .. except me .. nobody helped my mom to call u .. so u missed it .. this doesn't happend to them but ME !!!!!!!


why ? .. .. does this means that we don't have FATE ??...



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